Tea with Ingrid and she tells me clearly that yes it is possible. “you only need one sperm, Gavin.”
spending time with Xander, godson, has given me clarity. i am re energised. i only need one of my tiny percentage to be healthy.
what do i want? why am i doing this. Martin Luther King wrote in his letter from Birmingham jail, that before any action is taken one must ‘self purify’. for me this means to ask those questions. to stop and think and meditate.
I have the most beautiful garden in the world which i can stare at from a comfy soft brown couch every morning and meditate with birds as my sound hook. birds… not cars, or alarms or washing machines. I sat there and thought about this journey i have been traveling. it was never meant to be conventional. i guess i was shocked when it became difficult or should i say not easy. but again – i never thought this was even possible, so why am i worried about this road turning into an elevator and now i have to change floors and go down to another department i did not know even existed.
I am moving towards my child. Do i want to do this?
yes – that much is clear.