papers papers papers

31 page Founding Affidavit

23 page Surrogate Aggreement

78 supporting documents

ranging from: “what books do you read?” to “who will raise the child if you die?”; each created, signed, witnessed, copied, police certified

and all submitted.

Sometimes I think “Look at that person, pregnant. ha.” it is a strange place to be when you are waiting. your head space that is. “so and so is pregnant, did you hear?” “Really, it’s just that easy, hey?”

In the waiting room, you feel different emotions  – blessed, cursed, tired, bored, angry, frustrated, desperate, nothing… – and all these emotions slowly bounce off the soft white walls of your mind, like the little pink dot in that ancient computer game.

slide (email lawyer), dot hits the ‘paddle’ bounces up again (lawyer replies);

next month

slide (email lawyer), dot hits the paddle, bounces up again, (lawyer replies).

same email : “Any news?”

same reply: “Dear Mr Peter, we are sorry this is taking so long. please be patient.”

Slide. bounce

limbo – purgatory the Catholics call it, the waiting room, with one Men’s Health and a You magazine, before you can enter the gate of Heaven. The gates of Heaven, ironically watched over by my namesake.

Slide. bounce.

and yes – the quick reaction when the ball starts to drop, a call for another paper to be signed, witnessed, copied, scanned, certified…you only get one life in this game and you cant let the pink dot drop.

L’ennui interminable.